Eve in the Garden Since the time Michael was four years old he has been fascinated with his genitals. One day, while playing with a neighbor girl in the backyard sand box, someone gets the idea that they should show each other their equipment. He drops his pants and immediately gets an erection. Marcia drops her pants and stares at his penis, probably wondering how that stiff little thing is hidden by his clothing. Up to this point, because he has no siblings, Michael hasn't thought that boys and girls are different. He thinks he has made an important discovery. They are both standing there bareassed and giggly when Michael's mother comes out to check on them. She is horified. His erection disappears very quickly. Marcia is sent home and Michael is sent inside for punishment. Before the tongue lashing gets into full gale, as a prelude to a spanking, he quotes the bible to his mother, ". . . and pick them up when they fall". She is brought up short by this second precocious display and cannot bring herself to spank him, ever again. From this event he learns that his penis is a nasty thing and shouldn't be exhibited. That fun and interesting things should be done without his parent's knowledge, because he will be punished. And that girls are indeed different and exciting. The liason between the two young exhibitionists continues in secret. Occasionally Marcia enlists one of her younger sisters in the show. They are less willing to participate and having another girl around diverts Michael's attention from herself, so they are eventually dropped from the program. One afternoon they are playing in cardboard boxes which have been set up on either side of the wire garden fence underneath Michael's kitchen window. The box openings face each other across the fence and they are hidden from outside view. Michael's mother is washing dishes behind his back. Marcia suggests that they look at each other. Michael is hesitant because of his mother's proximity but agrees. He unzips his fly and pulls out his erect penis. Marcia pulls up her dress and slides her underware down around her knees. She looks at him for a moment, then says, "Can I touch it?" "OK, if I can touch you". "Me first". She puts her hand through the fence wire and extends a finger. He moves closer so she can reach. Her finger tip touches the tip of his penis and stays for a moment on both sides. She then touches further down on the shaft and says, "Where does it start?" Michael opens the slit in his underpants and shows her the base of his penis. Her finger tip touches the front of his scrotum. Then moves underneath and between his legs, cradling his genitals in the palm of her hand. Not finding anything interesting there she circles her hand around the base of his penis and gives it a gentle tug. It doesn't detach. Again she touches the tip, which is now bright red, and then removes her hand from the fence. "Your turn", she says as she moves her stomach closer to the fence. Michael reaches through the fence, extends a finger, and touches the top of her labia. He runs his finger tip down until it comes to the top of her legs, which are pressed together. She says, "There's something inside", and sits down. She lifts her knees, spreads her legs apart slightly, and slides herself toward the fence so he can see. She watches his hand as his finger touches her labia on either side. Michael can see that they spread apart in the middle. He pushes one labial fold to the side to see what she means. He reaches his other hand though the fence and uses a finger to hold the other fold open. He sees her vagina. A shallow indentation into her body that is blocked by folds of flesh. It does look like there is something inside and he puts his finger tip on the opening. He pushes it part way inside but is afraid to go very far and stops. He pulls his hands back through the fence and says, "There is something there". They both pull their clothes back on and make plans to get cookies and milk. It is difficult to say whether the excitment of a guilty secret shared is greater than that of the actions themselves. The nature of their friendship is kept strictly secret, even to the point of ignoring each other in their Kindergarten classroom. But every chance they get to be alone, one or the other suggests that they examine each other. Since neither of them knows why they have genitals, and especially why they are different, the relationship doesn't develop any further. When they are in first grade, Marcia's family moves across town and she goes to a different school. The church next door buys the property for classrooms and no new children move in. Michael now has a quarter block buffer zone between himself and any other children his age in the neighborhood. With immediate contact unavailable, Michael gets a crush on his grade school teacher, and then falls in love with Carolyn, one of his classmates. Both of these attachments are entirely platonic since he never sees either object of desire outside of the school grounds. Michael has seen his parents kiss each other sedately on the cheek, and has also observed this behavior on television shows. He knows it means that you like someone. He tries to kiss Carolyn on the cheek. She is unimpressed so he stops. Carolyn's family eventually moves away as well. Once Michael is playing with a group of childern on the school lawn. A girl is sitting with her back to a tree and her legs spread out in front of her. He walks up to her on all fours and places his hand firmly between her legs. She acts shocked and tells him he is a nasty boy. However, she doesn't try to make him stop, and waits coyly for his next move. The recess bell rings in the nick of time. Marcia and Michael meet again a year later, she looks at his crotch and and points to hers with a wicked look on her face. He gets an erection but they are in public. He never sees her again. Michael discovers that there are photographs of women in their underwear in the Sears catalog. They have this extra flesh on their chests that must be shaped and kept covered. He gathers that this flesh is similar to the genitals because you're not really susposed to see it. It must be nasty stuff. He becomes fascinated by breasts because you can always see some parts of them in the pictures. Crotches fall by the wayside, cleavage is where its at. He spends hours looking through the catalog, and is never caught looking up things he shouldn't. Dangerous but easily disguised, it is really the perfect sex life. Two years later Carolyn returns. She seems to have gotten ideas of her own and tries to attract Michael's attention by stepping over his head while he is lying on his back on the playground, giving him an intimate view of herself. He is so distanced from girls his own age, who are not two-dimensional cutouts, that he keeps his eyes closed. XXX (c) 1991 M. I. Smith